Crossing All of Our Fingers and Toes

It's almost a thrill.  So much riding on one decision.  Genetics at our last appointment decided we had so many good possibilities presented to him, that it would be easier to do Whole Exome Sequencing.  This is a test he almost never orders.  He has got to be close to retirement age, and he told us as I asked a bunch of questions that he has only ordered a hand full of these tests in his career.  We felt so honored to be among the families in which he decided to fight for answers.  He agreed to write a letter to our insurance company asking for preauthorization.  He said it would be done within about 10 days, and then our insurance company usually takes 10-14 days to make a decision.  Well, Yesterday I realized it had been a MONTH since our genetics visit, so I decided to start bugging people. :)  I called and left a message for his medical assistant and I called my insurance company.  My insurance company said they had NOT received a request for preauthorization yet. :(  I was fuming.  I had been told it would be a fight, but I was hoping it would be different for us.  I got a call from our geneticist's medical assistant today who told me she sent the fax on September 24th, but they have received notice that a bunch of faxes did not send that day, and they have since replaced their incompetent fax machine.  She apologized an innumerable amount of times and said she sent it via fax this morning while on the phone with my insurance company to be sure it sent.  The insurance company said they would also mark it as urgent and make it top priority since it was supposed to have been sent weeks ago.  So now, we wait.

I'm not very good at being patient.

I'm not very good at dealing with things that are out of my control.

I kind of obsess about it and freak out.

And I've currently gone off my anxiety meds.  Bad idea!

So I have to focus on what I CAN control.  I can control my faith.  I can exercise my faith.  Now is a time to pray, and pray a LOT.  And we have been blessed by the miracle of fasting in the past, and I fully believe now is another time in which God can bless us for our faith.  In my faith we believe that when we both fast and pray there is great power, because we are showing sacrifice.  It is easy to constantly be asking God for things and hoping he blesses us, but it is more meaningful to Him when we show sacrifice ourselves.  In my faith, this upcoming Sunday is our monthly Fast Sunday.  I am asking for those members of my LDS faith to remember our family during your fast, and to pray that the insurance company may preauthorize our request for Exome Sequencing.  For those not of my family who believe in God and the power of prayer, I request that you please remember my family in your prayers and ask for this preauthorization to be granted.  You may also participate in a fast with us by missing 1-2 meals and praying on our behalf.  Mike and I will be fasting on Friday, October 10th.  We do not want to wait until Sunday, and we will be out of town, so we plan to fast on Friday.  I have also seen miracles happen when many people fast and pray together, and that is why I am asking you for your help.  For those who do not believe in organized religion, you play a big part in our journey as well.  You, too, have greatly blessed our lives with your positive thoughts, encouragement, and hope.  I have had several of my dear friends who do not believe in God still participate in a fast, as it still shows dedication to the cause.

So whatever your beliefs, please pray with us, hope with us.  We need a miracle, and we know with your love and support God can provide us with one, again.  We love you and thank you for all of your love and support.